I am thankful to be home with Tucker. I am thankful for the outings we get to take together.
I am thankful to be the one who gets to teach him and see him all day long. I am thankful I am the one that gets to try and decipher what he is saying all day. (Like today- going to the zoo and how the animal he wanted to see was "optimus rhinus." Translation? A hippopotamus and a rhinoceros or rhino for short.)
I want to be the one that is home with him, but I am sometimes drained and tired.
I admit that there are challenging days. Age three seems to be more difficult than age two. He wants to be so independent! But won't use the toilet. He wants to walk by himself around the store. But he won't stay with me. (I lost him twice at Walmart.) He wants to buckle himself into his own carseat. But he won't stay buckled. And, and! he is starting to throw some pretty big tantrums.
Although it can be draining, and I sometimes crave some adult conversation it does not make me any less grateful. I wouldn't change being the one that is with him. I would miss so much if I were not here. I would miss him.
I have had several people this week ask me about what I plan on doing when he starts school. A few have even started to plan things out for me. One person asked me to pray about a part time job. I am not concerned with any of that. I have plenty of things, that when the time comes, I will be able to do, that I have postponed the last 12 years.
Right now I am enjoying my time. I am oh so thankful for it.