For most of my married and children portion of my life Sunday was my favorite day of the week.
I loved having a "different" day-
A day to rest-
A day for our family to be together-
A day to attend church together-
A day to recharge-
A day I looked forward to-
A day so different from any other-
But the last few years, I have not had that same feeling.
I can't believe I am going to blog this, but ...
I started dreading Sundays.
I would wake up and dread the day ahead.
I would dread the enduring of church with the kids.
I would dread that the children would be grumpy, hungry, and tired after church because they had missed lunch and naps.
I would dread the thought, that I would not even have the smallest inkling of a chance to have a nap.
I told Jay how much I was starting to dread Sundays. How much I strongly disliked them.
I missed the old Sundays. The way they used to feel. How could I get that back?
We talked about what changes we could make.
And you know what?
The only things I could change were me.
While some of our circumstances affect us, for the most part, its how we react.
I don't have any of this down just yet, but ...
I consider this a blessed day.
I realize that there were optimal circumstances that lead to this, but tonight as I was driving home with a smile on my face, the thought popped into my head ...
"I loved today!"
So grateful to have loved a Sabbath day- and that it was Mother's Day!
It beat the last few mothers days hands down.
(last year, Jay gone all day, 1 very grumpy child, 1 child pooping all over me as we walked into church, a very disappointing meeting with no mention of mothers, no children singing- the year previous- a big miscommunication with my mom, and both of us with sad hurt feelings thinking the other did not want to spend any time together on Mothers day- ...)
I know ... I know... I had a lot of outside circumstances to add to the "love" of today.
Jay was home.
But I still had grumpy kids.
They still did not get lunch.
One was sick.
I felt different though.
I think I can use this to help carry me through the next few sundays.
I can make a few changes in me ...
I can still be happy- even when others around me are not.
I am looking forward to making more delightful Sabbaths-
Anyone else want to join me?