Monday, September 29, 2008

Little Girl Big Girl

I hesitated to make a big deal of it- but really, I just had to document it.
I have not taken any of the hair bows out of the bathroom. I could not. Something about giving up the little girl things- not wanting to let go of that time.

Anyway- she has not worn one for a long time. Like years. Would turn away at the suggestion.
But 2 weeks ago while looking for something in the drawer, I pulled out a purple bow and just asked, "Do you want to wear this today?" Her reply? "Sure."

I tried to not act excited for fear she would change her mind. With shaky hands I put it in her ponytail thinking, "Please don't change your mind, please don't change your mind."

I could feel time just kind of stop for a moment. When mostly lately it feels like it is slipping through my fingers. Silly, but it put a lump in my throat. These bows that we have had forever. Since she was 2 and 3 years of age. She has worn them many times before. But not for a long time. Around 9 she just kind of became too old for bows. Her words. Not mine.

I was never a bow or ribbon girl. And when I had my girl, my first child, I was not so much a bow or ribbon mom. But she was. From the moment she could twirl she wanted skirts and bows ... always.

So to revisit those days, her "little girl" bows, on such a beautiful growing-into-a-young-woman head it made me stop and hold the moment; not let it slip through my fingers.

I always have the camera with me. And I snapped a photo in the morning as we were loading into the car before school.

And then held my breath as she came out of school waiting to see if she still had it in.
Click went the camera.

She still did.

This moment may be all that it was. Just a moment. One day - to remind me of her little girl days and to recognize the passage of time.


Lynne's Somewhat Invented Life said...

I feel your pain. I hated my kids to grow up. She is a beautiful girl.

Kim Sue said...

even it was a moment, what a great moment to have!

Shana Revell said...

I remember the days of the bows. I think for a dinner appointment Savanna took one off and put it in my hair. I've never looked prettier! Good to hear/read that you and the fam are doing great still. Sorry I wasn't able to talk with you guys at Dwaine's funeral, we were being rushed as pole-bearers. Hope all is well. Check us out at Take care!

Kit (Elder) Revell

April said...

Alexandra won't wear bows anymore, either. *sigh* We are even buying clothing now in the junior department. Where did the time go? I am happy that you had that sweet moment.